Okay it's time to start morning pages again. A week off is more than enough time to get my bearings here on the new show. Fortunately it looks like this one will be a lot less intensive than usual. FINALLY. It will be very refreshing to come in and do work at a leisurely pace. Eat lunch. Get up and walk around during the day and not feel like I'm 6 hours behind at every tick of the clock. Plus the nice commute is also very appealing. I'm going to try and be good tomorrow and ride my bike in since it is Earth Day and I've been being about as bad as I can allow myself to be in terms of what it is I do. I totally blew off Climate Control Day or whatever it was called last week. I had such grand ideas of standing on an overpass with a big banner that said "Stop Global Warming Dickwads!" or maybe something slightly less bitchy. Maybe an "Earth Day Every Day" would have been slightly more appropriate. Damn I've got to get some motivation back soon for sure. I can't completely blame it on Aunt Pam's visit, because I've been a lazy shit for several months anyway. Why can't I just freaking DO IT? What am I so afraid of? And man am I ever fucking cranky this week. Everything is aggravating. Every little thing sets me off. I'm fat, tired and weak. When I do have time to do things I'm just too bored to even try. Hrrmph. I had so much momentum there for a bit but now it seems I'm back on the sludge train. Still want to get something started with that guy but it seems like now, there's been a slow down. Sigh. What can I do to get back on track? Maybe cutting out the diet coke again might be a start. Damn, 51º in mid april!!